if i am brutally honest with myself,
i am a huge wimp sometimes.

this is my final week at the bank. after this week, i can embrace beach-bumming days of shorts, tanks, flip flops and sun.

but this being my final week, means final lunches with people.
i have to attend this lunch hosted by the HR department for all the interns. and meeting other interns scares me to no end. i'm fine with my colleagues, because i'm the youngest in the office and i can pull out the 'little girl' card and beguile, amuse my colleagues, talk about issues and stuff but not feel pressured about ever being ignorant about anything.

i'm not really expected to know everything since i'm just an intern.

but man oh man, i'm scared of meeting people of the same level. i'm afraid of the high-powered interns from NUS, SMU and whatnots. i have some friends in business school in NUS, they're really ambitious, really high-powered and driven. they're the kind of interns who march off to their internship in powersuits, are super efficient and arrive before they're supposed to start work and stay on at the office til much much later, way longer than they're required to.

i, on the other hand, think a blouse and tailored pants plus heels is already formal enough.
i arrive at work on the dot (you'll never see me there any earlier unless i have to come in early that day) and i leave on the dot.

now obviously, i have no grounds of knowing that these interns would be like that at all. they could be like me

but still, it's the possibility.

well. that will be lunch for wednesday.
thursday, i lunch with my boss.

that too, i suppose, will be interesting or nerve-wrecking. i have never lunched with him before.

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i really am either a wimp or suffering from anti-social tendencies.