i think i derive my energy from the people i'm around with now.

tony, jon and joash are amazing people. and i would love to live with them.
i just don't know if this is God's will. and if i'm not sure, i can't rush into anything.

but man, tony walking into taco del mar with a sign around his neck reading "i need roommates and friends" seemed so perfect.



walking into gage today was amazing as well.
the feeling of being older, bumping into old friends, acquaintances, old roomies.
the loss of awkwardness, feeling comfortable in your own skin.
i guess it's growing up.

and now i am faced with this housing situation.
in a way it's growing up again, life's lessons.

i do not want to run away at the first sign of trouble. i will not run, it's not mature, it's not smart. i'm not a kid anymore. i don't want mummy and daddy to fix this.
but neither do i let myself be bullied.

my only problem? (well maybe not my only problem, seeing i'm flawed in so many different ways)
giving grace.
i don't want to just mature as just any individual.
but one who will be a testament to God's love as well.

thank you hannah for teaching me this.