i know that the worst criticism levied on myself comes from me.
and i have stupid fears that other people see me painted in those drab colours as well.

run run run.

i have that habit of escaping so they won't see

craving affirmation
of a 'box-less' me in the other's mind.


but that's for later.
i know that i'm tired now.
so with full knowledge,
i am going to hide away for now
i'm sticking my head in the ground