A chair is still a chair, even when there's no one sittin' there
But a chair is not a house and a house is not a home - luther vandross "a house is not a home"

leaving is always difficult.

i don't think i'm meant to be an academic. i actually wish i was done with studies and kind of have second thoughts about doing my masters. as glen once said, there is a desire to create, to physically mould and craft something. there is a quiet yearning to be some kind of productive member of society, to contribute something tangible and not have concepts, ideas floating in space. there is a desire to do rather than to merely discuss, replicate and intellectualize.

i think it's the problem with being a student for too long, at least for me. i feel like a change of pace, environment would be nice.

but that's not going to happen for now. so i'm just going to have to keep facing forward, and grasp whatever lies before me with my hands.