fine.

i do not begrudge what was said, especially when it is truth.
i may not like the idea of being mediocre. but the stubborn or i suppose, thickheaded part of me refuses to go down without a battle.

so here's the new game plan. since an A- average isn't good enough for grad school, and an A+ average is the surest way in,
i am
1) going to study my ass off and get those bloody A plusses.
2) do my GRE in the summer and qualify for a school that is way better than your lousy 4th ranked one here.
3) get an internship in the mean time to stave off the one year waiting period
4) apply for US schools instead.

ok. set. i'm going to bury myself in the mountain of readings.
and whilst i say all this, i know i am not the outstanding brilliant student who is naturally Phd material. i am aware of this.
but i guess i am going to try and try and keep trying until the door is finally closed and i can say with finality "all right, that's the end of this ride, it's time to move on, but it was worth the fight."

so let's go!