because i've not been faithful as a christian,
sometimes i'm afraid that if i'm not careful with what God has given me, He can and will take it all away.
it's insecurity i know, and it's a lack of trust stemming from the fact that i know i am not deserving.
and God loves his children, i know. i just haven't shaken this feeling.

I am glad at least in my life I found someone
That may not be here forever to see me through,
But I found strength in you,
I only pray that I have shown you a brighter day,
Because that's all that I am living for, you see,
Don't worry what happens to me
---Stevie Wonder, You & I