yes i'm changing as a person.
yes my initial thoughts and ideals are being challenged.

but is it really so bad, that in twenty years, i do want to be in that picture with you as you imagined?

so i'm going to struggle with this, because this is the burden i have chosen to bear. i knew from day one that it would never be a simple decision.
but if i've lost my way, then now i'm trying to seek truth again. i won't blindly accept someone else's words. i'll hear it for myself. even it means starting all over again.