going home is always such an exhilarating thrill, yet as I get older and as my responsibilities grow, I am also afraid of the time flying by so fast. In particular, I still feel unprepared and not competent enough in the field i'm trying to excel in. I'm worried that the field paper won't work out and just whether i have the economic chops for this profession!

so i'm excited to be going home after so long, but i am worried about my ability.

strive strive strive. reach reach reach. stretch stretch stretch.

if result has not converged, go back to line above and repeat.

O is probably right. this is one profession where you have to learn to be your own personal boss, cheerleader and slave-driver all at one time!